Sunday, January 6, 2008
Well, one week without Zach. At least I’m not breaking down crying when I get home to a quiet house without him greeting me. I’ll take that as a gain more than a victory for sure. Our house has never been so clean or organized. I keep myself busy especially in the evening hours. In fact, it made me think of my mom who said that she missed dad the most between five and seven. I didn’t really understand that, until now.
Many of you responded acknowledging our pain and loss of Zach. Some of you have shared your stories about losing your beloved pets. It has been so touching and encouraging as well. No one can understand the depth of loss to a simple animal than those who have loved one as well. I want to thank you all. Many of you are anxious for us to get another pup. We are as well. We can’t wait to fill the void and look forward to the love that only a dog can give to fill our home. Currently Leo and I want to wait and see how the chemo goes before committing to all that it takes to get through the puppy stage.
Yesterday, we met Dr. Higgins the surgeon who will be putting in the chest port for my chemo treatments. He explained that the port is good because of the frequent chemo treatments and the level of toxicity of the chemo. It will reduce potential vein damage and infection. Well that made me feel so much better, ha ha. .
Reality is hitting me and hitting hard. I do feel so good and do completely believe that God has healed me of the cancer. It’s getting more difficult to accept that I’m going to have these toxic medications in my body for the next 4 to 6 months. God is teaching me that healing can also be a “process” of events. I am starting to see that perhaps He is going to use me to be a witness for Him to those I come in contact with.
Many of you have seen me and seem shock that I look so healthy, the expressions on your faces do speak of your honesty. I do give God praise for what He has done in me. Yesterday, at the surgeon’s office the nurse was shocked that I had what she called “a major organ” removed. I can only say that I cannot take the credit, the doctor’s can’t take all the credit, only God can take all the credit.
I continue to be surprised at the number of you who keep checking in at the blog. I am honored by the love notes and cards that still continue to come in and I am humbled and touched by the love you have poured out on me. Wow, I can’t help but think that God looks down and smiles as His children show such love.
So Blessed,
God Loves Candy
Dear Candy,
Even though I have missed seeing you at the last two Saturday night services I have not stopped talking
about you !! I want you to know that you have been such an example of strength and courage. Your great faith is giving others the belief that they too can conquer their battles……and that they do not have to do it alone because God will ALWAYS be there either lifting them up from behind or covering their path a few steps ahead !! I always refer people
to your blog. Just last night I know you spoke
briefly with a woman who is facing the same
challenges as you. She told me in an email
today that she read your blog and felt so much better.
She is a divorced mother with a young son so she does
not have the family support that came from Leo and
your children but I assured her that her CF family
would be there the whole step of the way……praying
and visiting and doing whatever was necessary to
help her…….and to never forget that God loves
her !!!
Thank you for being such an inspiration !! I hope
and pray that the chemo treatments will be easy for
you and that they will destroy whatever litle traces there are of the cancer. I truly believe in my heart
that you will be a survivor and an example for all
who come in touch with you for many, many years to
come !!!
With much love and many blessings,
Wendy
” You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God
turns my darkness into light.”
Psalm 18:28
Candy,
Thanks for the update. Laura and I pray that God will continue to move in your life. The journey ahead will be tough,but I know God will bless you during this time. We also pray that God will continue to wrap His arms around Leo and you. Thanks for sharing your journey with us. God bless.
Todd & Laura
It is us again! I know that this is a wierd week, wondering what all of it will be about. I really understand. You are amazing! I want to be Candy Abdella when I grow up!
Love
Sarah (and Dondi of course)